I’ll admit, life with four kids 4years-old and younger has had me extremely overwhelmed at times. Mainly the inevitable moment in the day when everybody seems to need something from me all at the same time. I think I become over-stimulated because I suddenly just cannot deal and start shutting down, getting anxious or getting frustrated at things I’d usually shrug off.
My life already naturally brings chaos. Add a body that is still recovering from a fourth labor + hormones on high alert… yeah.
These last two-months I’ve been met with joy & thankfulness but also discouragement, anxiousness, exhaustion and so much mama-guilt.
Recently, in the middle of the night – exhausted in every way and in the middle of yet another feeding – I took my struggle to the Lord once more. I shared my heart & told him I was so done feeling this way… feeling off. I asked him to help me overcome this. since then, I’m encouraged. I’m trusting in the Lord and intentionally making decisions I’m hoping will prove fruitful.
It’s a battle for my mind, & I’m determined to win it!
It’s unlike anything I’ve experienced in the past-postpartum journeys I had with the girls. But I’m hopeful my transparency will encourage someone out there – you’re not alone, you’re not crazy and this is 100% normal. But I believe you’ll win this battle, because you are so dang strong!
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