my blogging struggle

You know when you think you’ve put a demon to rest, only to find it roaring it’s big ugly head at you from time to time.

That’s me and not feeling enough.

Not feeling qualified.

Some life circumstances birthed this beast and I still find myself picking up a sword to fight it.

This past week was one of those times.

Since announcing my decision to pursue blogging as a form of income, it feels like I’ve been doing research every spare moment I have. Comparing what others say I need in order to get traction and looking at what I have has been discouraging to say the least.

It’s also left me questioning a lot of things that have resulted in feeling of defeat which of course affects the rest of my day.

But God…

Isn’t that such a wonderful phrase!?

I felt so uneasy about this path I was walking down. Constantly frustrated, comparing and feeling yuck, I knew this wasn’t how it was supposed to be. So I stopped, stepped back and asked God to show me what I was supposed to do and where I was supposed to go.

Our church’s Sunday message was a much needed splash of cold water on my face.

That same afternoon, He graciously led me to a Podcast of a Christian influencer that I greatly enjoy following on Instagram. She has an extremely successful MLM (like I desire with mine) and is a blogger. Listening to her share her story, thought process and some behind-the-scene details, I found myself feeling recharged and a breath of fresh air filled my sails again.

So here I am. Vulnerably sharing my heart and a struggle I hate dealing with over and over again. Repeating the same truths I’ve told myself before with a couple new ones added to my tool box.

I’ve come to the conclusion that if you’re supposed to do it – if you were really created to do that specific thing – it won’t be easy. The enemy will try to make you feel defeated. Alone. Unwanted. Not enough. Worthless and unimportant.

And yes, I do believe with everything in me that this – blogging! Encouraging others through social media – will not be easy.

But I’ve got a big sword, and an even bigger God. So with some scrapes on my face, I’ll scream “Is that all you’ve got? Bring it!”